To you, My little one

To my naughty and now geeky, love,

My first glimpse of you was of a shock, I was expecting a full grown baby ready to play with me, rather than a cute cotton ball huge eyed toothless grin.
As times passed, we were as inseparable. Trotting you around like a mother hen, everywhere I went. You were my favorite toy. The childhood memories of mine are a collage of our laughter, moments when we almost wanted to kill eachother, fighting for everything which began with arguing to sleep on the window side of the bed, pencil box, washroom sink and what not. And the phase when we started sharing secrets. But somewhere in between we lost track...
Did i let you down, unknowingly?
Perhaps I got too busy with my life, with the new things which seemed more important. I lost my oldest and most trusted friend somewhere, never noticed the challenges and obstacles this old little guy of mine was facing.
Today I feel sad, for I have lost so many years where i could have been for you, but perhaps i let you down.
Did you fight all your battles alone! Wasn't I suppose to take care of you! So why did I fail, why did i never notice your struggle, your pain of making it to your dreams?
Why could I never figure out your tears which you never shed, the sadness beyond the smile?
My inadequacies are staring right on my face.
Want to tell you, my little one.. That, even though I never said how much your presence in my life made a whole world of difference. My only friend, you where.. when every other kid fought with me, the only one who shared his candy with me even though I never did. The only one who smiled at me and encouraged when I failed in my first ramp auditions, my solace when I cried oodles after Rahul Dravid got married. GOD, I was a mad thing then… The more these emotions flowing out, the more I realize how much I have missed you and how how much I have always loved you even when you pasted that horrendous poster in my room or burnt my favorite doll (Coz I paid more attention to her).

The responsible in the family…. I felt relaxed for mom's health coz I knew you were there (I know a huge responsibility, but you were always the responsible one), everytime i hugged you, I felt like saying how much you mean to me, but I never did.. Thinking you will know.

I wish I said this before that I swelled with love and pride every time I saw you climbing every step of your life with success.
When there were teenagers and kids whining away their time on the nitty-gritties of life you were building the steps all by yourself sorting your path towards your dream.
That dream is not broken, not shattered. A little speed bumper to prepare you for the tough life it will be.
I know you will make it. I perhaps won't send this note to you.
Say this to you, I will someday. N tell you, how proud you make me with every mile stone you cross. How much I love you, the way I guess I don't love anyone.
You are my Mt. Sumeru, My Majestic Eagle.....
And you are my every part of my being which GOD forgot to add in me.
I adore you.

Love.

P.S.: Its just a reminder for all of us, that in this chaotic and unreliable world when we feel that there are only back stabbers and search for that one best friend.. We forget that we always have that one person right with us..

Our siblings...

We fight, we cry, we laugh and do every possible thing under the sun.... At times, we forget how immaculately they held our hands when we were too distressed to show it to the world.

This one's dedicated to all the little ones and the elder ones